I am a recovering addict. First, however, I am a child of addiction, mental illness and generalized family chaos. This primary condition greased the skids for my later attachment to the quality of MORE. (More booze, more lovers, more things, more food… just MORE.) Addressing this underlying issue- growing up in what we used to…
Learning that I am lovable and worthy was a huge part of my ability to maintain my sobriety. The warring thoughts in my head, the ones that told me I didn’t deserve this beautiful life, my “success” in career and relationships threatened to undermine my recovery. It was critical that I redeem my self respect and…
I have recently discovered the “more” there is for me to learn. I have done my steps. I have gone through them a few times on a variety of issues: relationships, sex, and money to name a few. I do my Tenth Step – not daily but frequently. I meditate and I study. I talk…
I remember that quote; “good fences make good neighbors”, from Robert Frost’s poem “Mending Wall” since reading that poem in school. As a regular part of the curriculum we were asked to read and analyze it and I did my best. This poem is complex and deep (as are all his works) and yet I…
Fear and Kayaking- Part Two Sea Kayaking in Hawai’i: a day that gave me lessons about myself dressed in the mantle of panic. In the solution. I moved into my yoga practices. First- breathe. Then be sure you are rowing effectively, find your balance, engage your core, use all your muscles; not just the easy…