• THIS Is What I Am Doing Now

    meditation-511563_640“THIS is what I am doing now” is my intention.

    I woke up with a mind full of memories, of things to do, of things, people, places, obligations and desires. I had a mind FULL; I was not mindful. So I did what I have learned to do, I asked the committee to wait and I sat. I was completely doubtful about my ability to meditate, but I did so anyway. There was an inkling of hope – but mostly I was DARING my meditation to quiet my mind.

    Over and over in my meditation – I advised myself, as I might a dear friend; “You are sitting here to meditate, you might as well do THIS now.” So over and over, one plan or memory – one thought at a time, I invited the that stream of mental busy-ness to wait, to sit beside me. I invited MYSELF to let go and do THIS now. I have these few minutes sitting on my cushion where I am not thinking about the past, or doing laundry, or writing emails, or going to the store; remembering or planning. In this exact moment I am sitting, I am being, I am breathing. So do THIS now. Avoid the lure of the memories of yesterday – so exciting; full of activity and promise. Avoid the enticement of planning for tomorrow (so exciting; full of activity and promise) but THIS, this sitting, this breathing, this practice of letting go.

    A miracle happened. Sometime during this short meditation, these moments of remembering and reminding, I got off the train of racing thoughts. I stepped away from the madness in my mind. My breath slowed, my shoulders dropped, my belly softened – all without direction. I was able to be.

    This is my mantra, my intention, my mental reminder for each moment in the day: THIS IS WHAT I AM DOING NOW.  If I can stay in the activity before (even now – writing and not moving into what comes next, then in that; without being in the following activities) each moment, being in the doing of that action or non-action-I can honor and bless each moment with my undivided attention.

    THIS is what I am doing now. Meditation gave me back my presense of mind and my present.

    Kyczy Hawk E-RYT200, RTY500 is the author of Yoga and the Twelve Step Path(2012) and “Life In Bite Sized Morsels (2015) and “From Burnout to Balance” (coming 10/24/2015).

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