I used to hold that beautiful image of a colorful delicate creature emerging from a chrysalis as the icon for my recovery self.
I have since learned that that is not true in my case.
It has not been a one and done event. Evidently I need more work.
I know that there is nothing puppy, unicorn and rainbow-ish associated with crustaceans, lizards, snakes or certain insects and beetles. They can be seen as ickable and scary; even evil at times. They are just animals in the kingdom of beings, nothing inherently bad about them. They just are not pet-able or universally loved.
My recovery is the same. I didn’t just change once. YES – the spiritual experience that brought me into the rooms had the quality of the the caterpillar turning into a butterfly after a period of hibernation, resulting in an amazing transformation. But, as the Cat in The Hat would say: “No that is not all, oh no, That is not all!”