My heart hurts.
Tomorrow I go to the memorial service for a strong, indefatigable woman who knew how to enjoy life. She also lived life fully, edge to edge, even in the toughest times. And she had them, she had challenges of all types and she felt them. One of her gifts was in sharing the good times and the bad times, as they occurred, in the moment. She drew on the past as a measure of change not as a place to languish. She didn’t hoard the delights of the past, nor did she wallow in the difficulties.
She knitted as a hobby. She liked to knit, she loved the color and the feel of yarn, but she didn’t like patterns so much. She made scarves and hats and neck warmers. She participated in a couple of art shows with me; the first year selling dozens of pieces to her delight. I got a few myself I will treasure them even more, now.
My heart was still hurting from memorial two weekends ago. Another dear friend had died. He was a support, a help, and a resource for both me and my family, including my mom when she was frail and I was out of town.
He would check on the house, be sure all was well and act like it was no big deal. It was a big deal to me. His attention brought us all comfort. He was like that. He helped countless people and acted as if it were no big deal. The photo here is of him in Mexico. He went with the Lion’s to distribute glasses to underserved people in rural areas of Mexico. He did that for everyone – brought sight and insight to the “underserved” areas of their life.
He was kind to people in pain, welcoming to people who were uncertain and new; he was a family man; he loved his kids. He shared his feelings and was not shy about that- he was a fine example of what it is to be a man. And he is gone.
It has been a rough start to the year. Beacons of light and understanding have gone out. They have gone out in the physical world but remain here, in my tender heart, that hurts just a little right now; but is grateful to have known them all.
Kyczy Hawk E-RYT200 is the author of “Yoga and the Twelve Step Path” and the creator of SOAR(tm) (Success Over Addiction and Relapse) a teacher certification training she holds with her good friend Kent Bond E-RYT500. Find out more about her and the training at www.yogarecovery.com